U-B-C.

so, it's just been the first week of school. i just did my first (online) assignment of uni. i feel fucking clueless. i read the readings, i listen in class, i do some notes, and when the question pops up i have no bloody clue what the fuck is what?!?!?. or in the case of math, that occurs before i've even left the classroom. trololol. i think i'm probably not as bad off as i make it sound there, but still. and part of this is insecurity. in high school, without sounding like a bragging douche, i was one of the guys on top - i was in the top smarterish bunch, and i knew it. but here, in UBC sciences...well, the welcome speech said it all. the admission average for my faculty was 89.5. my average was 89.25. i bring down the average of my faculty; i'm on the low end of the spectrum now. ffs.

on the other hand.

i'm fucking proud of getting in, hard as it is here. and i'll fight for that.